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Dec. 14th, 2015 10:06 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
choco_froshSovay asked me the other day--while I was attending her family's annual latke-fest*--how I was doing.
The answer is...mixed. I've been somewhat more depressed lately: the weather doesn't help; neither did the other thing I did on Saturday, namely attend a climate change rally that turned out to be kinda sad; some of it's just the accumulated depressing state of my life. I'll post about that more later.
Also, the job doesn't help either. Still a bad combination of something I'm embarrassingly overqualified for with being horribly stressful. (We haven't had another thousand-package day, but the overall volume hasn't decreased much.)
Anyway, this morning I was "OK, I need to go back on medication"-level depressed.**
Better this evening.
Things I've been doing a lot of lately:
- Bellringing
- Choir-related stuff
- Playing too much of the antiquated computer game Realmz. (We may be at "Time to delete it from the computer becuase it's eating your life" at this point.)
- Various bureaucratic crap, connected both with my trip to England (in a week! eep!) and with health insurance, since it wasn't 100% clear to me how MassHealth interacted with employer-provided health plans (at least when the latter are crap.) I have MOST of this sorted, I think, except for buying train tickets back from Newark to Boston.
...an actually that's about all I have time for, apart from work and staying alive.
*This, incidentally, was awesome as usual. I left it with a small box of delicious fudge; it failed to survive 24 hours.
** I ran out of antidepressants some months ago, and haven't gone back on them since: my job doesn't leave me a lot of spare time, so I don't want to waste it first finding and then meeting with a doctor; and while I'm unhappy but (mostly) functional when I'm unmedicated, I'm also not terribly positive and happy when medicated, so...yeah. Recovering a little more functionality doesn't seem so important.
I do not claim that this is a GOOD decision, but it's what I'm doing for the present.
The answer is...mixed. I've been somewhat more depressed lately: the weather doesn't help; neither did the other thing I did on Saturday, namely attend a climate change rally that turned out to be kinda sad; some of it's just the accumulated depressing state of my life. I'll post about that more later.
Also, the job doesn't help either. Still a bad combination of something I'm embarrassingly overqualified for with being horribly stressful. (We haven't had another thousand-package day, but the overall volume hasn't decreased much.)
Anyway, this morning I was "OK, I need to go back on medication"-level depressed.**
Better this evening.
Things I've been doing a lot of lately:
- Bellringing
- Choir-related stuff
- Playing too much of the antiquated computer game Realmz. (We may be at "Time to delete it from the computer becuase it's eating your life" at this point.)
- Various bureaucratic crap, connected both with my trip to England (in a week! eep!) and with health insurance, since it wasn't 100% clear to me how MassHealth interacted with employer-provided health plans (at least when the latter are crap.) I have MOST of this sorted, I think, except for buying train tickets back from Newark to Boston.
...an actually that's about all I have time for, apart from work and staying alive.
*This, incidentally, was awesome as usual. I left it with a small box of delicious fudge; it failed to survive 24 hours.
** I ran out of antidepressants some months ago, and haven't gone back on them since: my job doesn't leave me a lot of spare time, so I don't want to waste it first finding and then meeting with a doctor; and while I'm unhappy but (mostly) functional when I'm unmedicated, I'm also not terribly positive and happy when medicated, so...yeah. Recovering a little more functionality doesn't seem so important.
I do not claim that this is a GOOD decision, but it's what I'm doing for the present.
